I have what I call a slow processor. Sometimes it takes me too long to realise the simple and obvious path forward.
I tend towards complicating things based on what I think I should do. I spend too long thinking and researching a thing rather than just getting on with it and figuring things out through the process of doing.
This blog is a prime example of that! I wrote before about my breakthrough moment of realisation that this site can be whatever I want it to be because the entire point of it is to have fun and maybe connect with some like minded people.
I was able to let go of all the SEO and all the junk advice out there on how to be a blogger.
It felt fucking awesome.
But since then I’ve still not been able to get going, and it’s making me feel mentally blocked and frustrated that I’m holding myself back in some way that I can’t express.
There are good reasons I’ve stalled. I’ve had a lot of time and energy consuming things going on, but I’m realising that those things will keep coming up because such is life. But also those are often the things I would like to share here.
I just spent 16 days on a self-drive tour of Canada with my mother. We went to a lot of places and saw many interesting things. It also brought up changes in our relationship as our roles have started to shift into a reversal (now I’m 35 and my Mother is 60). I planned to talk about it here but every time I sit down to draft something it’s just so much to cover I can’t get it out.
This has brought me to my latest epiphany.
I don’t have to write full length, comprehensive articles for every post. There is no rule that says I have to do that. This is my blog. I do what I want.
If I only have half a thought but I feel like I want to share it I should just fucking share it.
(It also dawns on me this is a life problem – I have many not yet fully formed thoughts or coherent opinions I haven’t found the words for so I don’t verbalise them).
So from now on I will allow myself to blog short posts. I just need to get it out.
Something is better than nothing.
If it’s crap I can delete it later.
Just do the thing.